Power

"Don't let them have that power over you!" My parents constantly told me this growing up. 
It may be risky writing this today, I have been in a very peculiar mood the entire day, full of my usual highs with some pretty low lows. A tiny, unthrilling roller coaster is typical for someone like me, but this day has been Medusa (six flags, Vallejo)! 

I'll start with a story. Today reality hit me hard that the man I fancied does not fancy me back. Sounds silly yes, but I tell you, I'm in a mood today. I know what my parents would say, they would say, "Don't give him that power over you" if they had heard my sobs. A good friend was able to fill me with fluffy goodness/encouragement, so that mountain has been both climbed descended. Stupid boys. Side story time...

After the fancy man incident, at dinner tonight, a new cute man gave me a funny look (a look that I get a lot, being unique, though I am never quite sure how to interpret it). I had met him, so I asked him how he was AFTER I saw him giving me the look. He was uninterested in answering, as he made clear by walking away. Now, the type of the mood I am in I wanted to take him by the cheeks and shake his head and screech some inaudible blatherings at him until he learned his lesson. I refrained, too distracted by the deliciously fruity popsicle I had just acquired. 

All this is to bring me to the point of power. Who am I letting rule my moods? What determines my happiness? In other words, who has power in my life? By breaking down when the fancy man failed to acknowledge me properly I gave the power to him. He has no idea, of course, or if he does he should die a million deaths in the fiery pit of destruction. 

YOU SHOULD BE THE ONE DETERMINING WHAT DETERMINES YOUR HAPPINESS. My Constant, the one Constant in my crazy life is Christ and who I am in Him. He calls me redeemed, and therefore beautiful and blessed. My happiness needs to be drawn from this. Maybe you can relate, some of the contenders for the top power holders in my life have been: friends, boys, professors, and stress-level. Sock all those guys in the face and say YES to the True Source of Delight. 

I realize this is a shorter post than usually, but (like I'm trying to learn), be thankful for what you do have, stop looking at what you don't have.